Zeta. Life. School. Break.

Well, I made it through the semester. For about the last month I wasn't sure if I was going to actually make it. Things got rough. And Zeta drove me insane. I never thought I'd hit a point where I wanted to quit. Almost did. At this point, I'm going to go alum after I get married. It's a semester early, but it's okay. I didn't get an office and I disagree with the chapter and where it's going, so I don't want to be a part of it any longer than I have to. What I am keeping in mind is the principles of Zeta. I love Zeta for what it stands for, what it teaches, and the ideals every Zeta should live by. It is for these reasons I stick by it, not the people I have to stick by in this chapter. Now don't get me wrong, I love them, but I don't think they make good leaders. There are better people who could be in those positions but whatever. The politics aren't going to ruin my life. They're everywhere and unavoidable in life so just learning to deal and survive is good.
School is over. For the semester at least. Two left. And I'm on break. So yeah. Freedom. We'll see how the next few weeks go.

Busy!!

You know, it's crazy what some people, like myself, choose to do with their lives. Especially me. I know it's all voluntary, but shit! I must be crazy! I'm taking 20 hours this semester (the vast majority of which are upper division), I have two jobs, I'm actively participating in Zeta, I'm planning a wedding, I'm an officer in Zeta, and officer in Panhellenic, the Executive Director of Student Senate, and I'm in belly dancing. Sometimes I think I'm intentionally trying to kill myself.

Currently, at Job B (a.k.a. front desk worker in a dorm) there is an alarm going off. It beeps for about two minutes, stops for 10-30 seconds, then starts again. I've been here for three and a half hours. I think I'm going to kill it. Normally I use my time at this job to study and get much needed homework done, but today that is utterly impossible. I have a hard enough time focusing when it's quiet. Add constant alarm status and loud volumes and it's damn near impossible. Uhg.

Anyway, I'm just a bit tired and wanting to go to bed. Stupid beeping thing. So I felt like rambling a bit. Besides, you're reading this, so clearly you don't mind my crazy too much ;)

School Year '10-'11

Oi. Yup, it's started. Huzzah!! I've figured out that I only have three semesters left until I graduate with a double major. Sweet! Also, haven't yet decided what it is I'm going to do after school. A part of me wants to be a lawyer, and yet part of me thinks that's a bad idea. I don't know. Luckily, after I graduate I'm taking a semester off so hopefully I can figure out at least a few more steps of what I'm going to do after school. Oi.

As of now I am planning recruitment for all Women's Greek Organizations on campus. Woo! Also, planning a wedding, working, and going to school full time. Jeez mon'! Luckily I have amazing friends, like Lish, who are there all along the way. And what would I do without Chris? He really is my rock. He's the resounding figure that's pushing me to get through school, to not give up when things get tough, and my shoulder to cry on when it feels like everything is falling apart. And that's part of why I'm marrying him.

I really need to clean my house, though. It's stressing me out because it's so dirty, and the cats are throwing a fit that we haven't cleaned the litter box in a while. Ew. I'm still debating on whether or not to clean after I post this. I've been feeling sick all day, but honestly, maybe it's in part due to the state of my house right now. Gah, if only I had a washer and drier. I was so close, too! Well, we'll see what happens. Maybe I'll wash a few dishes then go to sleep. I've done some homework today, so I'm feeling pretty decent. Worked tonight, did well, missed a class because I almost passed out and threw up everywhere, but overall I'm feeling okay at this point. Just tired. So maybe all I'll do is some dishes. And maybe the litter box. Or I'll have Chris do it when he gets home.

So Close!!!

Summer school ends this week. I've finished two of four classes. I'm so ready to be done. Oi. Just waiting for the week to end. Huzzah! After this week I can spend all of my energy on two things: Cleaning my house and planning recruitment. Dude, I couldn't even sleep last night because of how much I was thinking of/planning recruitment. Oi. Eat, sleep, and breathe it I suppose. I guess it's a good thing though, to care this much. It means I actually give a crap about it and want to make sure it's good. Bleh. I will cuddle with the cats and plan. Fun. Anyway, not much else to say. I'll ttyl.

Oizers.

You know, I keep coming back to this, how I don't seem to blog much because my life is crazy but I'll do more. Well, to be honest, I think my life will always be crazy. And maybe that's okay. I guess it's okay that my life is insane and so I don't think to blog all of the time. Oi. Oh well.

My cats are insane. Chris's cats, who previously lived with his mom, now live with us because she moved to a new place where she can't have pets. So, our oldest cat is Spaz, who is the mother of Derp, our next oldest. Below that is Petra. I'm pretty sure I've talked about her in this somewhere. And our newest edition, more likely than not only about six or seven weeks old is Isis. Yeah, I know, I'm turning into a crazy cat lady. Luckily, only half of these cats are mine. The other half belong to my boyfriend.

Living together is going amazingly. We've lived here for about two months, and I really like it. We still haven't finished unpacking everything, mainly because both of us like to just unwind and not worry about it. Oi. Silly geese we be! We recently had our six month, so that was fun. My dad visited me this past week and I was stoked!!! Eek! The only annoying thing is that we both are fairly messy people but I'm also mildly OCD so I like everything clean. If only my ADD didn't kick in and make it super difficult to focus on cleaning...

Life is good, just working on a lot of school and such. Speaking of which, I'm pretty sure I have an assignment due tonight, so maybe I should stop blogging and do that... Hmm.

Alright, I guess I'll go, but hopefully I will blog more recently than another two months. I hope.

=]

Moving

The past week has been crazy, primarily because I'm moving. Chris and I are moving in together, and I'm stoked. Yes, that means I'm staying out here for the summer and not going back to Albuquerque, but I'm okay with that. I'm looking forward to the direction my life is traveling in. We have three cats in our place, Spaz, Derp, and Petra. They're adorable, but Petra hates them. Oi. Still, she's slowly getting over it.

This week is dead week, meaning that we are doing absolutely nothing other than killing ourselves with our last week of classes. It also means that finals are next week. Still, as much as finals suck, it means that you've reached the end of the semester. It means that anything that's been kicking your ass or killing you or is just something that you need a break from is finally at an end and you can go on. It's like a mental restart button. It puts you back together so that you don't lose your sanity. And I'm going to need it. This summer I'm taking 14 hours. This fall I'm taking 22. And the spring? Hell if I know. The goal is to graduate in May. So one year from now I'm going to be graduating. Holy shit. It seems like I just started going to school here and yet I'm about to leave. It makes me sad. But at the same time, I'm ready for my life already. I'm tired of being a kid with adult privileges. I need to move on. I want to live my life. I'm ready to be an adult. Screw all this "Let's party, study, whatever the hell it is we do here" attitude and move on. So I'm going to try to graduate in May. If I can't, I'm here until December.

My plan for after I graduate is to go to Law School. Random, I know. But I want to do it. All of the stereotypical law school/lawyer ideas don't appeal to me, but I've taken about 5 law classes and loved all of them. I figure that law classes are much closer to what it is that law is all about and how it is in reality, and so I figure that that is probably the most accurate description I have is the classes I've taken. I want to go to UNM; I just hope I get in. That's why I'm trying to graduate in May, though. Law schools don't have Fall/Spring start sessions. You have to start in the fall. So if I finish in December I will have eight months to go before the school year would start. I'm not sure what I'd do with my life. Oi. It's a scary thought. And if this doesn't work out, well, I don't know what I'm going to do.

Anyway, just a little update on life. I'm crazy tired and ready to be done with everything. I need the two or three weeks off that I have before summer classes start. I need something to do that isn't stressful, exhausting, or trying to kill me. So I just need to find a job for the summer and then worry about passing my classes. *sigh* I just want the semester to be over.

Law School

When I was a little kid, my dad told me that I would make a great lawyer. He wasn't saying that I had to be one or that it would be the best thing for me to do or that he wouldn't love me if I wasn't. He didn't spend my life training me to go. He didn't pound it into my head that it was completely essential for me to go to law school and that that was to be my direction in life. No, all he said was that I would probably enjoy it and that I'd be good at it. When I was a little kid I took it as a compliment because he thought I was smart enough to be a lawyer. As I got older, though, he just kind of left it as I went on to pursue my own ideas.

Last year, I was taking a criminal justice class where my teacher prompted discussions and thought about criminal cases. I didn't talk much, but it always made me think of what my position would be and for the first time challenged me to defend it. I loved it. So my dad said again what I had heard so long ago, "Have you thought about being a lawyer? It's very similar to what you're experiencing, and you would be really good at it." I thought about it, but I was still stuck on the idea that I wanted to do forensic work, be a criminal profiler, all of that fun jazz. Plus, I was thinking about lawyers with the stereotype that Hollywood projects. So, while it spiked my interest a bit, I put it in a back corner of my mind.

This semester, my science classes for my degree have been kicking my ass. I've gotten so frustrated with it that I've been tempted to just give up on science and major in something else. So I added a second major, Psychology. Contradictory, yes, but in the pathway of becoming a profiler, it makes sense. While I wanted to drop Forensic Biology, though, I realized just how close I was to graduating with that degree, and it seemed like a waste of time and energy to not follow through. I only have a year left. One year, and I will be done with Forensic Biology. And I learned that I could finish Psychology as well. This means that this time a year from now, I will be 20 years old and about to finish college with two undergraduate degrees. Intense, I know.

I was talking to my dad about finishing school next May and he brought up grad school. He asked if I thought about it and what I wanted to do once I graduated. I told him I really didn't know. It's true. The thought of graduating is amazing. The sense of accomplishment I'd have is absurd. To me, graduating like that would make up (in my mind) for all of my academic failures in the past. It would be the statement that says, "Look at me! I'm smart! I can do whatever I want to do and nothing will hold me back!" So while I'm stoked to graduate, I'm also horrified, because what am I supposed to do after I graduate? I'd have a degree in Forensic Bio and another in Psychology. What the hell do I do with that? I don't want to work in a lab. Being a psychologist isn't bad, but honestly, the likelihood have having guaranteed work in this economy is low. So no. I don't know. So my dad brings up grad school and I'm thinking, "Well crap, I could go but I don't know what I'd study and how would I pay for it and there's a myriad of problems and questions and issues to think about before I could possibly go." His suggestion: What about law school?

First off, until this point I didn't even know that law school was a graduate program. I'm not even sure that I connected it into the realm of normal academic schooling because you go to specific "law schools" and you study law. It's a category of its own. At least that's what I thought. Now I know that in order to get your doctorate of jurisprudence (J.D.) you have to go through a law program at an accredited school and it falls into the category of a Graduate School Program. Who knew? Not me.

Second though, maybe that's a good idea. It would give me something to study. I'd have a direction to go. Wandering aimlessly in life without direction or purpose is horrifying to me. Now I'd have a direction. And UNM is one of the best law schools in the country. Lawyers will always have a job, and there is financial security. I can live a comfortable lifestyle. But would I enjoy it?

I remembered what I felt last year, and so I decided, "Why don't I look into this? It wouldn't hurt to look." So I did. I looked at UNM first because it's in my hometown of Albuquerque, started to read about their program, and look at various aspects about what law school entailed. It was one of the most interesting things I've ever looked at! So I decided maybe it's worth a shot. I looked at various requirements to get in, and started to think, "You know, I could probably do this." I kept hearing about the LSAT (Law School Admissions Test), and so I looked into what that was. I read about it and while they kept saying it was super difficult, it just didn't sound that hard to me. I figured a better test of that would be to look at practice questions to use as a better judge. Of all the questions I took (granted, it wasn't that many), I got about 90% of them right. I wasn't actually trying. So now I'm thinking that with some preparation, I could actually do this.

The classes sound crazy interesting. Stereotype law sounds horrendous, but I think about all my experience with law (about 4 college classes worth) and I realize that I loved all of it. So which is a better indication of what I'd think about it, a stereotype from a place that always fucks up everything and doesn't get anything right, or classes that focus on it and are way closer to the actuality of it than television could ever get? It was at this point that I decided to go to law school.

So this is my plan now. While graduating next May was only a possibility, I intend on making it a reality. Law schools only start in the fall semesters, so if I graduated in December I'd have to kill eight months before I could start school. I need at least decent grades, so I'm determined to do well academically as best I can this semester and for certain for my last three. I am going to spend this summer studying my ass off for the LSAT, and I am going to take it in October. By February of next year I will have my application completed for UNM. And I am going to get in.

Tired

I'm so tired, all the time. I just want to be awake, to feel fully functional. Being this exhausted all the time is killing me. And when all I want to do is sleep, I can't get the things done that I need to. I hate it. I just wish that I could do this. But I'm so stressed out all the time, trying to get going and I can't. School is kicking my ass and I'm trying to keep up with it and study but at this point it doesn't even seem to matter how hard I try it still isn't good enough. Maybe if I wasn't so tired and busy all the time. But even then, I don't know. I just wish life could be easy. But then again, if it was, it'd be a slut. Thus it chooses to be a bitch instead. Uhg. FML.

Sleepy

Such is life when you work crappy hours because no one else wanted them because they're early in the morning and you needed a job bad enough that you were willing to work at 3 am. Still, the moneys is good. Okay, minimum wage isn't fantastic, but it's a pretty good amount of money for what this job entails and when you have no bills to pay it definitely is a plus. So most of the money goes into savings, and the rest of it gets spent on random stuff that may not be necessary but is nice to have. Example A: bough yarn and crochet needles yesterday. No, I don't need it, but crocheting is relaxing and fun. And it wasn't too expensive, either.

Life is going alright. School is proving difficult, but I guess if you're working towards a college degree it should at least be a little challenging, right? So hopefully things work out. This week is midterms week for all lab classes, and next week is midterms for everything else. Woo. I think I should be alright, I just really need to study and do a lot of work for it. I want to pass everything and do well this semester.

Chris is amazing. I know, if you look at posts from a year ago, they probably say the same thing. Just remember, a different Chris. The current one will always be referred to as Chris, the other one is Stahelin. Don't confuse them. Stahelin has turned into a stupid dick, so whatever. We don't really talk anymore. Chris is fucking amazing. He makes everything better. Yesterday he cooked me breakfast. Mmm. It was amazing ^.^ And he treats me amazingly. It's odd being with him because it's probably my most mature relationship. All others have been highly concentrated in one area or another, but never been balanced. I'm stunned at how balanced it is now. He means so much to me, it means more than anything that I have him in my life to help me and care about me and be there to cheer me up.

I've been living in Portales for two months now without going home. It's weird. And I'm having withdrawals from my sister. Lol. Who would have thought, right? Funny thoughts. Still, I get to go home this weekend because it is Zeta Day on Saturday. Zeta Day is basically a day where all the alumnae chapters and collegiate chapters of ZTA in New Mexico get together, give awards, honor members, and overall just share experiences and Zeta with one another. It's super cool, and it's in Albuquerque this year so I'm super stoked! Yay! Although friend time will probably be minimal (I'm sorry guys) but Spring Break is in a few weeks so I will get to see you guys then =]

Anyhowzers, I'm at work right now (I know, it's approaching 5 am and I've been here since 3. I still have another hour) and rather tired, but it's naptime for a couple hours afterwards and then class at 8. Yay! But not really. Genetics is not a good subject to take at 8am when you work in the morning before then. Minimal sleep + early mornings + genetics = not a good idea. Still, I get to sleep after class. Yay sleep! I have a sleep addiction. I love sleeping all the time. Oi. Maybe it's gotten worse since I've been getting such irregular sleep all the time. Maybe that's also why I haven't really gotten over this stupid sick thing. Oh well.

So I am off, but remember, oodles of poodles is better than pogs of hogs. Lol =]

Sleepy Sick

I think I'm still sick. I think. So that would probably explain why I'm super tired. That and I got about 6 hours of sleep last night, although, in the greater scheme of recently, that's really good. Except that I'm sick and need to sleep more. Oi.

Life is crazy, but I think I've come to the conclusion that of course it is, and it always will be. I worked 14 hours this weekend and I've decided that it is a very good thing that I'm not going back to work till tomorrow. I get paid on Friday and so I am stoked. I'm pretty sure that I am going to need to buy a bride's maid's dress for Lish's wedding first with the money I'm saving, but I'm also going to go and buy a tattoo for myself (finally!) and a laptop. I want a car but honestly $200 a week won't get me there anytime soon. So I'll buy a cheap laptop that's little and I can take with me. Sounds good to me.

Anyway, I need food before I go to class. I just felt like throwing random info up. Maybe I'll post again later today. Or maybe not. I don't know yet. Peace.

My Bad

I know, it's been a while since I've updated. I've just been super busy and lacking internet access. Anyway, right now I'm procrastinating studying for this test I have in the morning because I'm feeling super sick. It's just weird though. I don't know what's up; I feel weak, tired, shaky, nauseous, dizzy, faint, and I have a head ache. I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe it's just the combination of a lack of sleep, lack of food, and lack of liquids. If I got all of those then maybe I'd be fine. Or maybe I'm coming down with some weird or bizarre illness that will be a bitch to recover from or it will hospitalize me. Way to be dramatic. I'm sure it's the former.

Life is ridiculous. So where to start?

1. I have a job. I know, crazy, right?! I get paid minimum wage ($7.50 an hour)and I can work up to 30 hours a pay period. Not too bad. Although my scheduled hours are pretty much all at ungodly hour o'clock in the morning. Like 3:00 a.m. ungodly. Oi. It's trying to kill me. So where do I work at such weird times of the day? The front desk in one of the residence halls on campus. Not too bad. I like my job. I get paid to sit and do homework and if anyone needs to use something from the back I get it for them, make sure it's checked out properly, and that it gets returned in the same condition it left in. But at 3am, who's awake? So I watch movies on my iPod, draw, listen to music, do yoga, read, do homework, write, whatever. Just no sleeping.

2. I'm taking 15 hours of classes this semester. I'm hoping that I get better grades this semester because:
a)I have fewer hours than normal
b)I'm working at least 10 hours a week so that's 10 hours of potential studying I can be doing.
c)I'm scholarship chair for ZTA, and part of that I've set study hours at the house. So that's another 10 hours a week I can spend studying.
My classes aren't too bad, just a lot of work. I'm trying my best to stay on top of it though.

3. My life is a soap opera. No joke, if I were to film it it could be Youtube worthy. Any dramatic star in any telenovela would be proud of the drama I've managed to accumulate. Between friends, school, boys, Zeta, and everything else, it's ridiculous. Luckily I have Chris, because he is amazing and rocks my world. He makes everything better. And he still sticks with me even through all the crazy shit. Without him I'm not sure how well I'd be able to work through this semester. He's what's keeping me going, being the influence that let's me know that I can do it.

4. I am now officially double majoring in both Forensic Biology and Psychology. I'm pretty stoked, and I should still be able to get out of here around the same time I originally would have, anyway. Woot =]

Anyway, that's all I've really got right now. I'm thinking of piercing my ear again and getting a tattoo, I'm just working on getting the funding. I'm pretty sure I'll have it after my next paycheck, though. And more on that in another blog posting. So, until next time =]

Back in P Ville

I made it back last week on Friday night and I've been hanging out with people since then. It's good times; I like being back. I've gotten to hang out with a lot of people I haven't seen in a while. I've been cleaning, reading, writing, and just spending time with Chris and various other friends. I went to a wedding last Friday, taken to a nice dinner on Saturday, and have just been having a lot of good times. I'm glad =] Now I wait for school to start while working to make this semester better than the last.

You know...

The point of having a blog is, oh I don't know, to blog! And clearly I fail at that. Oi. Wha'ts weird is that I check this all the time I just don't update it. I guess I just have a lack of motivation or something. Bleh. So, updates on life:

1. Just had my 5 month anniversary with Chris. Twas amazing!

2. I've been doing summer school. I'm taking Cultural Anthropology and Criminal Investigations. So...much...reading!

3. I was babysitting for about three weeks. Finally over, but it definitely wore me out.

4. My mom had a hysterectomy at the beginning of the month.

5. My dad is having a hard time with his massage business. But he just finished his massage CD (if you're interested, go to www.kirksugars.com), so that is good.

6. I had a hormonal attack a couple of days ago. No fun. The worst part is that the lies your body tells you are made to be so real...

7. I have had a change of heart of what I am going to do with my life. After I finish school I'm going to work in a Crime Lab for three years and then work to become an FBI Special Agent.

8. I started working out again. My body is loving me for it.

9. I've been keeping my room cleaner.

10. I can't wait for school to start up again. I'm going back in about two weeks.

Anyway, that's about it. I'll try to post more. I know, I say that all the time. Uhg. But who knows, maybe this time will be different, aye?

Sinus Surgery

Yuppers, so I know that I posted at some point in time that I needed to have surgery because my septum was deviated and I had a cyst in one of my sinuses. Well, yesterday was my lucky day of accomplishment. Huzzah.

One plus, I got to sing "They're coming to take me away! Ha! Ha! They're coming to take me away! Ho! Ho! He! He! Ha! Ha!" But not to the funny farm. I did get drugged. I saw cool lights that looked like I'd been taken away by aliens. I felt burning in my arm as the anesthetics kicked in. I fell asleep as the oxygen mask was placed on my face. Woot.

I woke up about two hours later with a slight burning sensation in my nose and the same oxygen mask attached to my face. The nurse who was attending to me was super sweet. I got to drink water and eat crackers. Mmm. Crackers. Delicious! I got cool socks with paw prints on them to wear, and nifty hospital gown that could show everything but I was too drugged up to care, and a sweet little thing to wrap around my head to catch all the blood dripping out of my nose. Fun times, aye?

I also got a wheelchair ride! Yay! They pushed me to my car in a wheel chair and it was almost like being royalty because I was escorted out by a couple of nurses and my dad while being pushed on a wheelchair by the nurse. It was awesome!

I was given vicaden for pain and something else as an antibiotic to keep infections away. I was told that my septum was straightened nicely and that it was a good thing I had the cyst removed because there was a growing infection around it with lots of puss so it would have been substantially worse if it hadn't been removed.

Today I got to get the splints taken out of my nose (which was actually the best part of that visit). What a relief! It took out so much pressure from my nose! Only thing was, I had stitches in my nose from straightening my septum that were cut out today (ouch!), a lot of dried and crusted blood stuck to hair around my nose that got ripped off, and a suction thing stuck up my nose to get rid of a bunch of gunk that was lodged up there. Bleh!

But I did my first nasal rinse and it actually felt substantially better than when I had done them before the surgery. Much less pressure to work around. I'm able to breathe more through my nose (although it smells kind of weird) and it doesn't hurt so much. But maybe that's just the medication talking. I'm super sleepy it seems, so I keep taking these little naps because I have to sleep upright and I can't sleep for more than a few hours. Oh well. Medicine helps me sleep, though.

I can't look down (for the most part), so that is making things interesting, but oh well. I ate a bowl of ramen today and I was very excited. I watched the movie Seven yesterday. It was AMAZING. And Chris came by with a goody basket and loads of love. Today Carla and her brother Andrew came by with goody bags and love, too, and I was very excited. Yay! So now I think I'm off to sleep more. At least, maybe. I have to take medication again in 30 minutes so maybe I'll wait till then to collapse.

ECSTATIC

Holy cow, life has taken a turn for the most amazing adventure EVER. I'm so excited!! And I now have a list for why life is perfect.

1. Chris

He's so amazing, I have no idea how I've lived without him. Plus, I'm pretty sure that I would not ahve made it through the last couple of months if he hadn't been by my side the whole time reminding me that I could do it.

2. I got to take my Biology Lab final outside yesterday. And I think I aced it.

3. All three tests that I had today (Chemistry Lab final included) are over with, and I think I passed them all.

4. Two days left of classes and then it's just a week of finals.

5. Chris.

6. Bri is out of town for tonight so I have the room to myself.

7. I know where I'm living next year!!!

8. The room is mostly clean.

9. I can kick back and relax for the next couple of days.

10. Chris gets to pick me up and take me home next weekend!!!! XD

11. School is almost over.

12. Initiation for Zeta is on Friday. Then, nothing to worry about with them after this weekend.

13. My stress-filled life is about to be stress-free ^.^

14. I can sleep now if I felt like it.

15. Chris is just so freakin' amazing!!!!

So yes, life is great. And I am pumped. Yay!!! And I'm not pulling my hair out anymore over all the insanity that is/was filling my life. Yay!!!

Life!

Life. Is. Crazy. But then again, who's life isn't? I've been crazy stressed out, on the edge of psychosis, struggling to stay alive, see friends, I'm head-over-heels in love, and somehow I'm still alive. I don't get it. After my meltdown on Monday, I spent substantial time on Tuesday trying to figure out what is stressing me out in life. Without finishing the list, I got up to 73 reasons. Again, I don't know how I'm not dead. I think it's Chris keeping me alive and giving me a reason to keep trying. All my friends say we're disgustingly adorable but I just don't care, actually. I love him too much to really pay attention to people and what they say. So for the remaining four weeks of school I'm going to continue trying just because of him. =]

Spring Break

Let's just say this: srping break did not feel like one week. It felt more as if I had just spent the last month back home. That's how freakin' spectacular it was.

Breaks. What to say about them? From one perspective, yeah, it could be a highly useful block of time when you have absolutely nothing that you have to do, no where you need to go. It's the perfect time to get caught up on everything in life that you've been neglecting. Perfect, right? I think so.

What have I been neglecting? Me. I'm sorry, but it's true. I've been so bogged down with life recently that air is always a nice little refreshing afterthought that never comes. The calm before the storm? It's long past, and the storm has yet to be over. But along comes a delightful little break that I can spend at home. One week back in my hometown with the people I love and doing anything I want. It's amazing.

So what happened over my break? Snow, rain, doctor visits, movies, lap tag, ice skating, dancing, singing, driving, cuddling, freezing, burning, fighting, sleeping. Win.

I left for home a day early because the eastern side of the state was under a winter weather alert for the whole week leading up to the Friday I had been intending on heading home. Luckily for me, I got home before the storm hit and the interstates closed. Win.

Weekend was great. I saw Chris for ample amounts of time, introduced him to the magic of lap tag, and received my first boquet of flowers ever.

During the week, I visited doctors about my breating issues. Turns out I have a deviated septum in my nose which then lead to me getting a cyst in one of my sinuses so over the summer I get to spend a good amount of time doing surgery and recovery. Fun. Haha. Right. *spark of sarcasm*

I actually got sick on Thursday night but I think I'm better now (I hope so at least). Chris made me tea and helped me sleep though and that right there was huge win. HUGE!! There was ample time for cuddling and hugging and loving and movie watching too. Oh, there was dinner with my parents, dinner with his parents, and lots of family get-to-know-one-another time. Woo! But his family is really cool so more wins!!

Ice skating pursued on Saturday. Yay! I haven't been skating since August so super treat right there. Phenominal food was also provided. Yay! Plus, Chris's brother and my sister are getting along well and that makes me happy.

Sunday I took off back here at school, but it's okay, because break was awesome. I'm totally refreshed and pumped about school again (which was definitely needed; all enthusiasm died a few weeks ago) and so now I'm ready to take on the world plus Chris is so amazing I don't know what I'm going to do with myself. *sigh* Life is just so amazing.

One Month

That's how long my epicness of happiness has been going on. AND it's all because of this amazing man who stepped into my life. Today is (in case you didn't figure it out) our one month. Yay! I'm so excited ^.^ Seriously, I feel as if I've been living merely a half-life up until now. It was like I was blind to the world until Chris came around and now I've been blinded. Who knows if I'll ever be able to see clearly again?

Life

Oi. Life. Really. Insane. What to say? School is. My roommate and I get along great, the only thing is we've spent a lot of time in hospitals recently together. Oh man. Lemme tell you, waiting rooms and the ER suck. No fun! I have a boyfriend, and his name is Chris. He has completely brightened my world. Zeta is stressful. And I am crazy busy.

End of School

Yup, I've finally reached that point in the semester where all my finals are done and I'm finally home =] I have my computer with me (always an added bonus). I can't play WoW, though. Sad days ='[ Still, Things are going pretty good. I got to hang out with my friend James last night. Never a dull moment, to say the least ;) lol. I got a migraine this morning, though. No bueno. Oh well.

Tomorrow will be interesting - I get to pack up my stuff to go to Australia on Saturday and try to come up with things to do on the magical road trip my grandparents and I are going on. It should be fun.

Speaking of Australia, I have to say that I am really freaked out. I'm not worried about being there or how long I'm away from home or anything like that; what I'm really freaked out about is that I'm going alone. Operating all those airports by myself and flying on a flight that's 16 hours long with no one but me is going to be an interesting experience, to say the least. I guess it's a part of growing up; knowing how to make these trips alone. Still, I'm a bit freaked out. I've only been 18 for a month. Oi. But I'm getting a new journal to write in tomorrow so that is good. Woot!! I guess I get to work on keeping myself company =]

Okay, weird stuff. I've been on a high for the past week or so, and it's weird how it affects my life. I'm so pumped to do everything. It's crazy! It's like, I wake up and I feel like I could do anything if I wanted to. Weird stuff. I don't even seem to need sleep; I just get up and I go and no sleep seems to be needed. Oi. Just the fact that it's gone on for a week is weird. Oh well.

I've been talking to my sister a bunch today and I always seem to forget how awesome it is talking to her. Man, I love her. Really, I don't get how I didn't like her when I was younger. I just must have been crazy. Oh well. I guess I can make up for lost time =]

So finals are over with and the semester has ended and I passed all my classes so I will never need to go back. Yay!! It's a good feeling. And it's nice knowing that I have six weeks with no crazy obligations to go through with or any deadlines to meet. I get to just sit back and work on getting my shit together before I take off full speed for another semester that's going to be harder than this one. I know I can do it, I just have to stay focused. And hopefully I'll have meds by then so that I won't have to deal with the crazy mood swings that are out of control. It will be good.