Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Bleh. I feel like running around doing a happy naked dance right now because maybe it'll help the black feeling of my heart. It sucks, and it hurts. I hate relationships. I hate people. Uhg. I'm so confused by all of it and the mood swings aren't helping any. I'm just ready to be in mid-September already. Life isn't going fast enough and yet it feels like I'm watching it pass me on fast-forward.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
It sucks. My boyfriend and I have been having it rough recently mainly because I was moving back to school and he was staying back home. He broke up with me five days after I left. Then, I went back home and two days later we were back together. But the next week wasn't that great. And so I broke up with him today. Oi. Life is just complicated. Why can't relationships be easy? Plus, I'm busy here but I kinda want a boyfriend near where I am because distance sucks and there's a potential but uhg. And he was a Dawg Days councelor with me. Super uhg. I'm just lonely, hurt, confused, happy, sad, and overall just highly confused and in lots of pain. I hate it. I wish life didn't have to be so hard. If only it was like dance, something that just happened and always turned out the way I wanted it to. I don't even know what to do at this point. I think I'm just going to smuther myself in life. I don't even want to deal with anyone at this point. I think I need sleep to get out of this emo slump.