Saturday, November 29, 2008

What I Want Most

Is there a way to just make this all disappear? I'm tired of feeling. I'm tired of feeling everything all the time. I just want it to stop. I want to be numb. I'm tired of emotion. I'm tired of life. Just make it stop. Seriously guys, if you know a way to stop feeling, stop caring, stop everything, let me know. I'm open to any suggestion because I can't take it anymore. What I want most in the world is to be numb.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008


Life is just weird. Have you ever noticed that? Just as you begin to become accustomed to what it is and how things are, it throws something new at you. Isn't it weird how just when you get comfortable with life, something new shows up and completely throws off your equilibrium? Then you're left wondering how this is going to affect your life and if it's going to be good or bad. Still, it's just something to think about.

Saturday, November 8, 2008


I have a question to you who take the time out of your busy lives to read this blog. Is it wrong to be true to yourself? On face value, I'd say no. But then you have to look a bit closer. What if who you really are isn't who people think? What if who you really are is, to put it nicely, very unfriendly? Society teaches us to be true to ourselves, but we're also taught that there is the ideal person that we all should strive to be. I've been that person my whole life, but what if who I really am is the complete opposite? Would it still be correct to be true to myself, or should I keep who I really am under the highest security lock-down my mind can create? Who I am is not what others want me to be, in fact, it's the exact opposite. On face value, I should say, "To hell with you!!" and move on with my life being who I am and never taking a moment to think about what others think of me, let alone what they want me to be. But if who I really am is a "monster" (at least, as seen my the whole of society), should I really do that, or should I keep on the path that was set before me by the world as a whole? It's a question I've been thinking of. While I think the outcome is unavoidable, I thought I'd pose the question to you. What do you think?

Friday, November 7, 2008


You know what really sucks? Being uber tired but being really awake. Yup. I'm wide awake but I really need to sleep. Uhg. I went to sleep around 7 because I started to get a migraine, and then around ten I woke up because I couldn't sleep anymore. My body temperature keeps going up and down, so that keeps waking me up, too. Bleh. This is no bueno. Rawr.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Election Results

So, if you paid attention, you probably noticed that my birthday was the day before election day, and I turned 18, so the bigger question is did I vote? Well, I did =] In truth, the only way I could vote was by absentee ballot because you need a voter registration card otherwise. Issue there is that they can't send it to you until you're actually 18 so I won't get mine until next week. But yes, I voted, and I am an avid Obama supporter. Plus, he won. It didn't help that I live in one of the most right-winged sides of the state right now, so when I went running around, cheering at the top of my lungs because Obama won, there was a voice in the back of my head telling me to tone it down so that I wouldn't die in my sleep. Oh well. So yes, I voted. First person I voted for ever was Barrack Obama, and he is our next president. Just say that out loud for a moment, President Obama. Doesn't that sound amazing?

Monday, November 3, 2008

Birthday!!! =D

In case you didn't figure it out, today is my birthday!! Yay!!! Today I enter the world as an adult. Officially, yes, I have reached adult status. I'm am freakin' 18!! Dude!!! I feel...shockingly old. I'm totally pumped, though. Just the new found freedom, it's invigorating. Hmm, man. I just I don't really know what to say.