Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Finals Week

I feel like my life is trying to kill me right now. I just want to take a bath, drink, watch a heart-wrenching, sad and depressing, no happy ending move and then ball my eyes out. Maybe it would help me feel better. I just want to be done.

I finished my General Biotechnology class on Monday and rocked it. I was feeling great. Went to meet up with my Molecular Biology Lab group and it started to go downhill. Of course. My yesterday morning it all exploded with a member of my group trying to sabotage my grade and make it so that I would fail the class because I didn't "do my part". I'll admit I haven't been fantastic at writing up lab reports super fast, but I do a lot. So I was freaking out yesterday trying to get stuff done and resolve that issue and ensure that I get a good grade for that class. And because of that, I didn't get to do the other work I had planned on doing during that time for the final I had in Experimental Psychology that night. Oh well, it's past. Now I've got three finals left. So close yet so far.

I don't know how much longer I can make it. Last week I got almost no sleep and this week I'm not really sleeping either. It sucks because all I want to do is curl up in a ball and sleep. I like sleeping so much because it's the one time I can forget that everything else exists.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011


You know, May has started and that means that school is almost over, we're well through 2011 already, and because it's the third I am six months away from turning 21. Weird.

I'm seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. All that's left is this week and four days next week. Then school is done and I am free. Shortly after the end I get to fly away to California, see family, and have a few days of not worrying about due dates and papers and tests and passing classes. I just have to look death in the face and realize that my grandma isn't doing so hot.

Still, looking forward to the freedom I'll have. I can finally clean my house to perfection AND KEEP IT THAT WAY. I can read books. I can play with cats. I can focus on my cactus/succulent garden. I can drink tea and play video games. I can watch movies. I can sleep. I will have the freedom to do whatever I want. It will be awesome. So looking ahead to the light at the end of my tunnel and fighting to finish strong before I collapse from exhaustion in the light. I can do this!