Monday, March 23, 2009


I know, I'm talking about them again. But this time, it's not about mine.

So I'm growing up. Obviously. I'm eighteen. I'm in college. I have a lot of friends who are older than me. But something I'm not used to is the idea of marriage.

Individuals that I've met in college who are in their twenties, yes, I can understand the marriage factor. I've got plenty of those. It's not weird to me. I came back from break in January to learn that two of my Zeta sisters got engaged. Not that bad. But it's weird when the people I've known for a while are doing it.

I found out a couple days ago that one of my best friend's best friends got married last week. That was a shock. Crazy story to accompany that one but still. So now he's married. That was surprising.

On Saturday, one of my friends from high school that I've been friends with a minimum of four years got engaged. Holy Crap!!! Last time I checked, she was living in Paris far from here and no relationship whatsoever. Now she's engaged. I'm shocked.

But that's part of growing up, isn't it? First all the friends get into relationships (which was the weird thing I had to get used to last year and the year before). Now they're starting to get engaged. Eventually it'll be the marriages and then kids. Oi. We're getting old.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

One Month

That's how long my epicness of happiness has been going on. AND it's all because of this amazing man who stepped into my life. Today is (in case you didn't figure it out) our one month. Yay! I'm so excited ^.^ Seriously, I feel as if I've been living merely a half-life up until now. It was like I was blind to the world until Chris came around and now I've been blinded. Who knows if I'll ever be able to see clearly again?

Thursday, March 12, 2009


You know what really sucks about relationships? When you care about a friend and they're in a bad relationship and won't leave. That sucks. Then you try to tell them they should leave, but they don't want to listen to you because they're so madly in love with the person who keeps hurting them. (This isn't physical abuse, so don't worry). But it's horrible. And it sucks, because I want to be there for her and get her out of the verbally abusive relationship because it reminds me so much of my past relationship but I can't get her out of it any faster than anyone could have gotten me out of mine. And it SUCKS!!!!

Monday, March 9, 2009


Have you ever just sat and tried to comprehend an atom? Sounds easy, right? Not so much.

I am a biology major. When dealing with the sciences, it is a requirement to have at least a basic knowledge of how atoms work. And really, if you spell out what atoms are in their most basic form, it's not hard to get.

For me, I understand the concepts behind atoms. it works out perfectly. Hands down, I get what's going on. But what completely boggles my mind is when I try to connect it to my world. I know that the air I breathe is full of atoms. i know that my computer, desk, walls, and floor are all composed of atoms. i know the trees, the water I drink, the animals outside, and even myself is all made of atoms. But what gets me are the reactions that happen all the time.

So take a moment to think about it. Know that the air that you are breathing right now is composed of atoms. Then comprehend that as it enters your lungs, it reacts to form other atoms that are then released from your body into the air. Look at the desk or table you are working at. It has millions of billions of atoms all bound together, continually moving. What really gets me is when i remember that the majority of what atoms are composed of is empty space. How weird is that?! And if you look at it that way, the majority of you and everything in this world is made up of empty space. That's when I chuckle at the thought of being solid.


This weekend I went on a caravan and let me review some simple rules that I've decided are important for driving in a large group:

1. Always stop at red lights.

2. Construction zones mean drive slowly.

3. If I'm having to drive 100 mph to catch up to you, you're driving too fast.

4. Use cruise control; it's your best friend.

5. Don't tailgate the people you're following. If something happens to whoever is in front, all of you will be screwed.

6. Speed limits are not suggestions, so follow them.

7. When you are approaching a light, make sure there's enough time not only for yourself to go through but for the rest of the cars to go through.

8. When turning at an intersection, don't turn unless the other five cars behind you have time to turn, too.

9. Don't stop in the middle of the highway.

10. If the group gets split up, be very clear about how you're going to find each other again.

Monday, March 2, 2009

Random Thought

Alright, so today I was riding in the car on the way to Clovis with my roommate and her mom and a thought occurred to me. I started thinking about adults. Me, I'm a young adult rapidly approaching my life and I'm starting to think about these things more. I noticed that I'm thinking "more like an adult". Weird, aye? But then I started to wonder.

First thought: What is it that makes the majority of adults follow the same basic lines for behavior? Is it a societal thing? Maybe pressures of working, raising a family, focus on the economy, having to make ends meet, maybe all of that combined is what makes adults the way they are. But then I remembered that most adults were not that different from myself and my peers when they were are age. So:

Second thought: What if when my peers and I grow into adults we act like adults of today? That put me on a little back track. So I really got to thinking on this.

If adults were like myself and my peers when they were our age, what is it that made them change? If I could figure it out, maybe I could find a way to prevent it. I mean, I feel as if it's a bit of a loss to "act like an adult" in the general sense of the phrase. It's like all these adults have lost a very significant part of themselves in their transition from childhood to adulthood. I think that's tragic. People have so much energy and vitality and just a joy to live (for the most part) when they're younger, yet by the time they hit 30 and start having kids and a family and a job it's like all of that gets sucked out of them and they become something that even they themselves don't recognize. How sad is that?

And then it made me wonder, what if my peers and myself become like that? What if we loose the joy and vitality that we have? Thinking of myself, my friends, people I interact with losing what makes them who they are is one of the saddest thoughts I've had in a while. I thought of all the people I care about and what about them that makes me appreciate them so much, and I thought of them losing that to the pressures of adulthood. It was so depressing!

So now I find myself utterly determined to keep what makes me who I am alive until I die. I refuse to let my fun-loving, free spirit be trapped by the trials of the society I live in. I want my children to know that I love life and that adults are still kids at heart. I am determined to keep me who I am no matter what life throws at me.