Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Working On Awareness

That's my thing right now, being aware of my life. What's the point of living if you only go through life in a half daze worrying about anything and everything to the point that you have no idea what's really going on? The first place that I am trying this out is how much I eat and drink daily. Being aware of what I put into my body can help me begin to be healthier. If I start to act healthier, I'll feel better. When I feel better I pay better attention to everything else. So this is my theory. I'm going to pay attention to smaller details and work my way out to see everything. I hope it works.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

SpyParty – A Spy Game About Subtle Behavior

SpyParty – A Spy Game About Subtle Behavior

So, awesome looking game. I'm not big on shooter games. Yeah, they're fun, but I don't want to spend all my time playing them. It's not my thing. And to be honest, my kind of game is subtle, behind-the-scenes games where you have to think when you play. And this sounds like the perfect game. Oh, I want to play so bad!!! I'll probably be horrible when I first start, but it's primary focus is all on the subtle details of the game, the people, the characters, and the players. You have to think before you act. You get one shot, and if you guess wrong it's game over. This is my kind of game. I'm interested to see where it goes and what it develops into. Alright, so there's probably another two years under its belt before it's released to the public, but it looks like it's going to be worth the wait. I'm excited that someone is making a game like this; it's so atypical from most games that are created these days, and something that encourages players to think and observe is a really good idea. Check it out, it looks like it's going to be a lot of fun =]

Getting Help

Because I'm insane. I think. My moods are awful, medication only works some of the time, so I'm in the process of finding a psychiatrist nearby who can help me out and figure out what to do. Yay. I hate being like this. I wish I was different.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Little Sisters and Zeta

So,yesterday we unveiled who our new member's big sisters are. You know what mine did? Told me that she didn't want me because I'm never around and acted pissed off in subtler ways all the while hinting at who she really wanted as her big. FML. It doesn't help me that she said the exact words that have been bothering me for the last month: I'm never around. It's true. I can't do anything with my sisters. I'm always working. And so no matter what they're doing, I'm never there for it. I don't know our new members because I'm not there. Hell, yeah I got this little sister, but I don't even know her! So what am I to do?

I think what hurts the most is that I'm trying and people don't see that unless they're my closest friends in chapter. It makes me want to quit. Honestly, I feel like I'm only dragging my chapter down if I stay. I'm an officer, yes, but I'm debating on if I should relinquish that position. I don't know what to do. This fucking sucks.

Saturday, October 2, 2010


My fun, lovable lump of love finally came home!!! Yay!!! He's been M.I.A. for the past week and a half, and then he just shows up this morning. WTF? Still, I'm glad he's back. Chris has been really upset because Derp is his favorite cat and he hasn't been here. Oi. As a result of the missing cat, we've gone to get collars for all three cats. Now, if they run off people will know that they are owned. Now if only we got tags with their names on them and phone numbers to reach us at.....