Tuesday, March 29, 2011

"Secrets"

1. I'm scared to have kids because I'm worried that I won't be a good mom and I'll destroy their lives.

2. I'm too selfish to think of anyone else.

3. I love college to death but I want to be in the "real world".

4. I hate my job and most of the people in it.

5. Sometimes I think I'm going the complete wrong direction in my life.

6. Many days I wake up wishing that I was a famous singer.

7. I wish I knew how to express my thoughts through art.

8. I'm tired of all the drama and yet I love it.

9. I can't walk by a reflective surface without staring at my reflection first.

10. I make things sound worse than they are because I like the attention people give me.

11. I have crazy moments go off all the time in my head, I just use all my self-control to fight the urge. That's why you think I have none.

12. Sometimes I wish I could be a cleaning lady because I always get a rush whenever I see something become clean again.

13. I think I'm fat and my self-conscious self hates it.

14. I think I'm drop dead gorgeous.

15. I'm highly narcissistic and highly insecure at the same time. It sucks.

16. Sometimes, I don't think bipolar is the only thing wrong with me.

17. My favorite colors are crimson red and sapphire blue because one looks like blood and the other looks like the ocean.

18. Sometimes I think it would be a lot of fun to be a serial killer.

19. I can't help but wonder what else I might have blocked out from my childhood.

20. People think I'm crazy blunt and "out there" when it comes to sexuality and all things included, but really it's because it gave me a face to hide behind so that no one could see how much I'd been hurt by it.

1 comment:

Tala said...

1. I feel the same way. Also that I won't find anyone to have kids with anyway.

4. That's why I keep telling you to quit =]

6. You totally could be!

7. SAME!! I wish I could compose music or paint or something!!!! >:( Instead, I play music that other people have written and follow the patterns of cross-stitches that other people designed.

9. I have found myself doing that recently...

10. I pretty much don't share at all.

12. Cleaning makes everything better. =]

15. I'm just highly insecure.

18. You would be a scary ass serial killer =P. At least I know you wouldn't kill me - you're too smart for that, you would know that that would get you caught. And, you love me =]

19. ME TOO!! Like that drawing and note that I wrote when I was 5 that freaked Grandma out and got mom to put us in skating - I have no recollection of that and I wonder what happened to make me feel/act that way...