Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Free Association Writing

So here's what happened. I decided that I would try out Freud's idea of free association writing. Well, it came out pretty interesting and fairly intense, but a lot of it was poetry of sorts. It was very thought provoking to me and maybe you'll find it the same. So I have decided that I will share a portion of it with you. I've changed the spelling errors but other than that I'm typing it exactly as I wrote it.


invisible motion to be lost in thought of great artistic memory yet forgotten by bittersweet love to turn to greed anger and hate

what comes now is as impassive as dark night always watching but never seeing never believing tragedy

what lies in words but can't be found might as well drown as the poet speaks literal words of death to be forgotten once more on tragic memory

what of me do you seek? a lost tangle of lies and deceit

better to end up dead than in someone else's bed

so hurt burned charred disgraced but never again to win a race

you'll never know never feel never see what it is to make me me

these cuts that grow blood will bring new life for only life can come from death only death from life

do you like what you see? this tragic mystery on love's death bed? heart grew cold as stone when left alone. can't love, can't breathe can't feel and there's nothing left to feel

you're dead now and you can feel it the empty tears of nothing froze you, too too long I've lived too long I've died and never been seen by you nor I I'm broken beyond repair

maybe he can see that

do you know? i know you feel something isn't right. maybe drugs or parasites

he's being eaten alive from the inside and we both know he'll never survive without your or I

but he lies hurts us breaks us makes us cold again and never can we be the same again

love him we do, we'll never stop but trust is yet a different thing for that can easily pass

don't read into the words as literal truth but find the secrets written behind. awaken and read and you will see what is left of you and me.


Again, that's only a piece of what I wrote. It came out pretty interesting to me so I decided it was worth sharing. =]


Anonymous said...

So Miss Krista--pretty dark on the outside. Of course you know that you are very bright in your persona and dark never describes you. Have an awesome day :)
Mrs T

Luna said...

wowzers, that's really good and cool. what is free association writing?

halley_elizabeth said...

wow.... thats really all i can say.
i'm going to create another word to describe that ;D you are really talented. like insanely..... wohoop that's my word. (wow holy poop)

Anonymous said...

I am bored :( That is probably why I am respondiing to an older message that you posted awhile ago. How are things going?

I reread your free style writing and Noticed that you mentioned Freud. This probably means that you have a psychology class this semester?

I don't know if you knew but back in my day I was a psychology early childhood education/elementary education major. I graduated with a BA in Psychology and 2 teaching credentials. I worked my butt off for all 3. It took me a long time to graduate--1981-1988. But I did.

But of course I took off 1 year with Up With People and then there was that guy from CA. So after my 3 year break I graduated but I had education in my blood so after graduating I went back to school for another nonth and recieved my Therapeutic Horseback riding Teaching Credential. My job allowed me to do this as I changed my hours to part time and only worked on the weekends. I went to San Juan Capistrano for school during the week. It was a 3.5 hour drive. I would work on Saturdays & Sundays and then get in the car and go to San Juan for school for the week.

Take a deep breath you are doing great!
Have an awesome day My dear Krista :)
Mrs T