I hate it. I hate lies. Hate. Honesty is painful. But at least it's better than a lie. Lies tear down the spirit because you know you weren't worth the truth.
How do I keep from him what I feel? I want to tell him but I know I can't. Being the way we are is painful enough on my heart, but walking away would hurt even more. I want to stay. Is that so selfish of me? But I know it's one-sided. I know what it's like to be on the receiving end of one sided affection and I know it sucks. And I care enough about him to do what is best for him and walk away. But it will hurt so bad and I'm tired of hurting. Sadly, I got myself into this. And I'm going to have to do the same with two other people. FML.
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